I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions. I live a relatively healthy and balanced life; I don’t usually need to pledge to work out more, or talk to friends more, or read more books because these are all things I normally do. New Year’s resolutions also seem to be a thing that people generally expect to fail at. I’ve heard in so many gatherings, “Raise your hand if you’ve already broken your New Year’s Resolution!” – it’s just expected. I’m not vehemently opposed, it’s just never been super appealing for me.
However. I want to intentionally have a few things that look different about my life starting in 2015. These aren’t things that it’s ok if I don’t follow through with, these are things that my life, and my health (physically, emotionally, and spiritually) will hinge on. And If I’m ever going to muster up the gumption to make myself commit to the blog – the time is now, and I’ll call it a resolution.
1.) I want to be a force to be reckoned with
I want to be a force to be reckoned with and I want the enemy to be mad about my existence. I want to walk out every detail and facet of my life in obedience to Jesus, whether it’s showing compassion to a friend when they need it, or if it’s picking up and moving; if it’s ending a relationship, or if it’s finally making the time to sit down every week and write. I struggle with making excuses, and saying “next time” or “almost” or “I don’t feel like it”. I wonder how much fruit I’ve missed out on, and how much of God that I’ve missed out on because of my inability to be obedient and act, rather than sitting idly by.
I will be a force to be reckoned with through understanding and realizing how important it is to weave my life together through prayer.
I’ll be a force to be reckoned with by meditating on, and soaking up the Word like a sponge. God’s word is our only offensive weapon [“Take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God” – Ephesians 6:17] which is so clearly demonstrated in Matthew 4, when Jesus is tempted over and over by satan, and Jesus only responds with scripture. Knowing the word y’all, is so incredibly vital to winning our battles with the enemy, and having a full and fruitful walk with the Lord.
I will be a force to be reckoned with because I will be consistent, and rooted, deeply rooted, in Jesus – in His words, His statutes, His commandments, His purposes for our lives, His light, His truth, the freedom that comes from following Him. I will not be moved or easily shaken. I refuse to give the enemy any more victories over me. [He only is my rock, and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved – Psalm 62:2]
2.) I want my life to be woven through and through in prayer
Prayer has always been an area of struggle for me. I usually only really find myself on my knees when I’m in great need, or when I just really really miss Jesus. It’s been hard for me to stay motivated and persistent enough to pray things through to the end, or to really pray consistently about anything. It’s been a struggle to consistently pray about my friends and family, rather than myself (can I just go ahead and make it clear that I am really selfish?). The Lord is recently revealing to me through a friend (who is incredible, and you can share in her wisdom here: http://katieraespell.com/) that at the root of everything, everything, is prayer. I’m finding so many chasms in my life, so many areas in my life where the enemy has a little bit of a foothold simply because I’m unaware of him dwelling there, and because that place in my life isn’t prayed over and watched intently by me. Before I make a move, I want to pray about it. Before I have a serious conversation, I want to pray about it. Before I go visit my family, I want to pray all over it. When I anticipate my day tomorrow, I want to cover it first in prayer. God is still working to unfold and unveil everything to me in regards to understanding the importance of prayer – but I do understand that everything must be covered in it, and protected by it. I have to work to build walls of defense, walls of prayer, in order to keep the enemy out.
3.) I want to be alert
I’m realizing more than ever that the enemy creeps into every little area of my life and tries to make a place for himself there. I’ve most recently seen this in waking up in the morning. After a break up, or any kind of heartache or hard change, it’s easy to wake up in the morning feeling hopeless, to remember how horribly wrong everything feels. Do you think we are hopeless? Do you think that God intends for any of us to start our day out in despair? No. This is clearly a plot of our enemy and frankly, I’m just not dealing with his little ambushes any more. I won’t stand by and let him easily overtake my thoughts. I will fight back. Every thought in my head that is untrue of what Jesus says about me I am going to fight against. I won’t be passive and I won’t be idle. I will boldly counter and destroy and take captive any lies that make me feel down trodden, or make me feel forgotten or unloved. Again – being rooted in scripture will be absolutely vital to seeing this one through.
4.) Simply: I need to commit more of my time (in this case more would be any of my time) to writing
God lays desires on our hearts. If there is something that you keep finding yourself consistently longing to do, and you’ve just never made time to do it – just do it. I know He has something for you in following through with an ongoing desire. He is so intentional. For me, this is writing.
5.) Strive only to be courageous, obedient, and say yes.
If you’ve ever read Love Does, you’ll understand this. I just want to say yes to what He has for me, rather than talking myself out of it.
This year, I am “resolving to” be present and fully alive. I don’t want to overlook the details of my life, or my walk with God. Knowing that it is just that – a walk. A pilgrimage in which we move from strength to strength [Psalm 84]. I’ve seen the areas that need strength, and I know that building up anything for the sake of Christ and for the sake of others seeing Christ will always produce good things. So 2015, I’m ready for you. I resolve to become a force to be reckoned with this year. I resolve not to blend in, and not to be complacent. I resolve to battle in prayer. I resolve to be alert and aware of the schemes and plans of my enemy that are intended for my destruction. I resolve to follow through with my commitments and desires and to see where the Lord is taking me. I resolve to follow Him through this year, inch by inch so that at I get to look up in wonder and marvel at a life that is more than I could’ve imagined or planned for myself.
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